The powerful second memoir from the twice-Man Booker Prize-shortlisted author of Hot Milk and Swimming Home. 'Life falls apart. We try to get a grip and hold it together. And then we realise we don't want to hold it together . . .' At the age of 50 and after decades of north London family-making, Levy finds herself cast adrift from her marriage and, crucially, without any desire to swim back. It is the story of every woman throughout history who has expended her love and labour on making a home that turns out to serve the needs of everyone except herself.